Sorry PD, on top of everything else, usually at the end of a long illness and a HUGE surgery, about 10-11 hours, that’s a lot trauma all rounded up. So I was also diagnosed with medical PTSD. Yep lucky me. I’ve talked to vets and they say medical people get it even worse than they do. I’m dealing but it ain’t easy. So I just have way too much anger and anxiety. I’m sorry for responding the way I did. I see a therapist but it would be better if I were a vet - they know better how to deal with it. Thanks for writing back. I’ve survived a lot with all the complications along the way. Thanks